Saturday, June 27, 2015

11 day's.......

WOW time went so fast. 
Our Dr. in January said they were going to send off a referral to the fertility clinic in the near by city that is 2 hours away. 
They called may 29 to set up a appt. July 9!!
It has truly been a mixture of feelings about it. Hubby and I decided to keep it from our family's. 
  My family thinks we shouldn't have any more children every and that we cant afford a second child ( insert eye roll) They treat me like a child still and seam to forget that I am 28 been married for 6 years and have been a mom for 5 years. 
 Hubby's parents are supportive but they keep asking when we don't want to share, and his mom also always says how she understands. * history lesson* ( his mom had a little trouble getting pregnant  but all she eneded up needing was  a hormone cream she had to rub on. As she really has no idea what it feels like to have to take pills to make your body function normally and to have to deal with the side effects). 
  We have told a few friends who we would know that would be wonderful supports, I shared with one friend and that person ended up being very unsupportive, that was  very  hurtful, but you know I moved on past that. Like I said that it's been a mixture of feelings I know personal it has been hard and really hard not telling our families.
  I personally have pulled away from my family a lot I use to call my mom and grandma everyday and talk for close to 20 min and some days it was more then once we would talk on the phone. Now its just short calls and not talking about much it's hurting but I don't need the negativity from them.
  I am so blessed that the majority of people we told are sportive. We know that we have a wonderful support of woman from our church, some have been were we are some have never hard struggles with fertility, but they all support me and hubby in our choice. I may have friends that are supportive but my main support and rock is my hubby. 
I do look foreword to  the appt. to figuring out a game plan, but also scared as to what the plan may be.